This has been the theme of my life as of late …
Filled with 2 parts sadness, 1 part feigned happiness …
Everything’s been … hazy.
Have you ever felt like you’re outside looking in?
Such has been life as of late …
Prone to random, hidden trickles of tears, followed by a smile in the direction of whoever is in my presence at the moment.
Like a pair of mismatched socks …
This is me as of late …
A ghost … traipsing between life and death … never fully confident about which side they’re on
Invisible, in plain sight.
Memories … which at one time were fun to reminisce about, now trigger paralyzing despair . Adding more weight, upon already fragile shoulders.
Like bacon cheeseburgers, they’re just no good for me …
As of late …
There is mush where life should be …
At constant war with how I feel and how I want to feel …
Always in motion, yet never moving …
