My Narcoleptic Mac

Happy New Year!

It’s been FOREVER since my last blog post.  I’ve had some serious problems that demanded all my attention.  I hope to slowly get back into the groove of things.

As most know, I was laid off in October.  That was the first of 3 devastating incidents.  The other two (briefly, as I’m not really ready to talk about yet):  my Dad is very ill and my ex has taken me back to family court (once again, for nonsense) …

I’ve been depressed! something serious!  Just like the commercials say: I can’t fall asleep at a decent hour … I can’t concentrate … I don’t want to do anything fun … I’m tired all the time … I just want to sleep when I can and do nothing … or watch Judge Judy, which is a really peculiar side effect to the whole depression thing …

2009 seemed to be a really shitty year for everybody … and I’m trying to stay positive and hope that 2010 will be the complete opposite.

I still really wasn’t ready to write a post, but then something amazing happened.  My Mac woke up!  Let me explain:

A couple months ago my very “wonderful” dog, accidentally, peed on my Mac.  I can’t effectively convey to you all how the color drained from my face and how everything around me moved in slow motion at that moment.  Panicked, I tried drying it as much as possible … did the whole “blow dryer” thing … tried “mouth to fan” resuscitation, but nothing worked.  It wasn’t waking up.

I spoke to a friend of mine who gave me a great suggestion (God bless his soul) and I put it away … in its little leather case w/ some silica gel packs (which I took from any and all shoe boxes I found in my closet) …

After about 2 weeks, my friend and I are talking and he asks about my Mac.  I had forgotten about it (defense mechanism, I think).  So I take it out and viola! it turned on!!  I was so excited!  In tears, almost! … until it suddenly shuts off …

There goes that feeling again …

Sadly, I tuck it away again … for what turns out to be another month or so …

Last night, I tried once again to turn it on and at first — nothing.  But, just when I’d given up all hope … I tried. one. more. time …

This time! It turned on … and stayed on … I was able to update my phone … able to get on Facebook and post the first status from this computer in months!  I was over the moon!  Over the stars, even!  My excitement couldn’t be contained.

After about an hour, I shut it down for the night.

Earlier this evening when I tried it again, it turned on again after a couple tries.  And although it stayed on for a while, it did abruptly turn off again … BUT … it turned back on again and I’m using it right this minute.  It seems to have developed a case of Narcolepsy – it’ll abruptly and without warning go to sleep every so often – but it’s ok.  Cause everyone/everything deserves a recovery period LOL …

I realize the above story about my Narcoleptic Mac may seem amusing – hysterical, even – but that single incident has sparked a renewed energy in me and I found a bit of a lesson there …

The lesson:  when life pisses on you, it’s ok to take a nap for a while … to not be yourself, but one day … by the grace and hand of people that really love you … you’ll turn back on and the world will be right again”